It’s been a little while since my last post. Life just seems to get busier and busier, so I’m having to learn better time management skills. This morning I woke up and I knew I had to write the blog that has been on my heart for so long. So without further ado, here is the blog that has been on my heart for several months now.
“But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33
What are you seeking? Are you seeking just the promises of God or are you seeking the heart of God? I’m not trying to condemn anyone. I’ll be completely honest, for so long I only sought the Lord mainly to learn his promises and what he could give me. I think we have all be in that place at one time or another. We get in a crisis situation and we start seeking every promise God has on the situation, which is not a bad thing. It is important for us to know what the word says at all times about every situation. But at what point does your relationship with the Lord become more about what he can do for you and less about fellowshipping with the Father and getting to know who he is? It came to a point where I knew all the promises of God about childbearing, but I still struggled with the trusting God for my children. I didn’t know God on a very intimate level and I didn’t really know him as my Father.
Do you know God as Father? For so long, God was somebody I sought when there was a problem. I didn’t realize he wanted a full relationship with me. I didn’t know he wanted to be my best friend and hear about even the most tiny detail of my day. I didn’t know he cared about those things. About 2 1/2 years ago, I began going to a new church and I remember a sermon my pastor preached on knowing God as Father. I was like I know God is my Father because that was the word says, but I didn’t have a revelation of it for myself. I had never really sought God as my Father. I struggled in my prayer life for so long because I didn’t know how to talk to God as a friend or my Father. I never truly sought his heart or to get to know him on a personal level. After that sermon, I began seeking God as Father and I just started telling him every silly detail of my day and just talking to him like a friend. And before long, my prayer life truly transformed and I began to have a real relationship with my wonderful heavenly Father, my daddy. 🙂 After starting to know God as Father his word came alive in a different way. I could see his goodness, his faithfulness, and his true character. My faith began to transform because I knew he is faithful and he is good and that he cares for me. I knew he cared for the desires of my heart, especially my desire to have children. I knew on a personal level that my Father cared if I had children, he cared if I received his promises for everything in life, he cared about my success in life, he cared about me, he cared about my marriage, and every other detail of my life.
“Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved.” Psalms 55:22
My relationship with the Father is what has sustained me throughout this journey. When my heart is aching for children and I’m alone and I just don’t know what to do and I feel that my faith is beginning to waiver, I seek the Father. In my heart, I see my self climbing onto the very lap of God and asking him to hold me and comfort me just like a Father would. And then his Holy Spirit, the comforter, will remind of what the Father has said in his word, what the done work of Jesus has done for me, and who I am in Christ. I always come out with my faith exploding and know that my Father is faithful to his word and that he cares for my desires to have children.
“Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalms 37:4
“God is faithful (reliable, trustworthy, and therefore ever true to His promise, and He can be depended on);” 1 Corinthians 1:9 AMP
Do you know the Father cares about the desires in your heart? Do you know he cares about your desire to be a mother and to have children? It just amazes me that the God of the universe cares about all the desires in my heart. He wants me to have children and his has great plans for their lives.
“He gives the barren woman a home, making her the joyous mother of children. Praise the LORD!” Psalms 113:9
I have so much more to say, so I’m going to pause here and continue more on this topic in another blog. For now, I encourage you to seek the heart of God and get a revelation of who he is for yourself.
To be continued… 🙂