Another cycle comes and goes, and it would seem things are no better. At first I was upset and saddened when my period came, but a day or so later I had a complete mindset change. My Father is so good to me. He is always faithful. I don’t always see his goodness or remember how he has been faithful to me in the past. Sometimes I am too focused on the issues I have right now to see his goodness. I started a journal so that I can remember how blessed I am, and all the things he has done for me. This way I can constantly keep my eyes on Jesus and not on the circumstances of today. I know that I know that I know that my own children are coming, but even if they never do I will be thankful and completely happy. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t believe that my children won’t come because God’s words says he makes the barren woman the joyous mother of children. I am the joyous mother of children! I just choose to be completely happy right now in every single area of my life. I choose to see all of the blessings I have right now and to see how much my Father truly loves me and to be thankful. No longer will I be saddened when my period comes because I know my sweet precious baby blessings are coming. So it’s not right this very minute like I want. That’s okay. I know they are coming soon. I’m not going to keep my focus on my cycles, when I ovulate, and etc. anymore. I’m going to love my husband and believe that I have been healed and that our babies are coming very soon. It’s not going to be long.
I choose to be happy and full of joy right now even in the area of children. My heart longs for children, but that doesn’t mean I can’t be happy in that area. I have nieces, nephews, and friends children to enjoy, and all those sweet babies in the church nursery to love on. I can enjoy the alone time I have with my husband before children. I can enjoy growing in the Lord and falling more in love with him daily. Then when those sweet babies come I can teach them how to be thankful and enjoy the right now even while you are waiting for whatever you need or want.
I am in awe of my Father and his love for me. It’s like I have fallen in love with my heavenly Father all over again. I can see how much he loves me. I am so thankful for all he has already blessed me with and done. He is so faithful, so good, and just indescribable. I also started getting up every morning and writing 10 things I am thankful for not because it is November, but so I can start my day seeing how good my Father is and how blessed I am. I want to forever keep an attitude of thankfulness. After I made that attitude adjustment, a joy uncontainable flowed into me and I can’t stop smiling. Peace was restored. Impatience in this area left and complete patience came. A deeper love and understanding of my Father’s love for me came.
I have been doing my Father an injustice by waiting to be completely happy until I have had my children. He snapped me out of that attitude the other night real fast but with love. I can’t explain it. I refuse to be unthankful and unhappy any longer. I have a good life right now and I’m going to enjoy every minute of it. I’m going to enjoy this season of life.
I want to encourage you to take your focus off any problems you have, and completely focus on the Lord and all that he has already done for you. There is not enough time in this life to thank God for everything he has done for us. Choose to be happy right now in all areas, do not let circumstances dictate your happiness. Choose to have a thankful attitude despite the circumstances of the day. Praise God for what he has already done and for what he is doing in your life. It will radically change your life and you will overflow with joy, peace, patience, etc. I suggest writing a journal, so that you can see how good and faithful the Lord has been to you directly. It will help you keep your focus on the Lord.
“Oh, give thanks to the Lord! Call upon His name; Make known His deeds among the peoples! Sing to Him, sing psalms to Him; Talk of all His wondrous works! Glory in His holy name; Let the hearts of those rejoice who seek the Lord! Seek the Lord and His strength; Seek His face evermore! Remember His marvelous works which He has done, His wonders, and the judgments of His mouth.” Psalms 105:1-5
“Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalms 37:4