At some point you have to draw a line in the sand and say “enough is enough.” You have to make a decision in who you are going to put your trust in. Are you going to trust what the doctor’s report says or are you going to trust in God’s promises? Are you going to google everything there is about your diagnosis or are you going dive into God’s Word and find out everything there is to know about what God says about your diagnosis?
At first, I would google everything about my problem and then go find out what God said about it. By the time I got to the Word, I was full of more doubt and unbelief than I was when the doctor diagnosed me, and I was worried about other things he didn’t even mention. It takes a lot of prayer and studying of God’s Word to get that doubt and unbelief back out and replace it with faith. Last month I had another not so great doctor’s report and I let it disappoint me. The enemy immediately came in and started to discourage me, and my joy and peace left. A few days later I drew a line in the sand and said, “No. I’m done.” I’m done trusting in the natural. I’m done trusting in google. I’m done believing the doctor’s report. I’m done letting the devil attack and steal from me. God said in his Word I can have children, so that settles it. I decided to stop focusing on the problem and just focus on the done work of Jesus and the faithfulness of my Father. All the promises of God are yes and amen (2 Cor. 1:20), we have been blessed with ALL spiritual blessings (Eph. 1:3), and God says he makes the barren woman the joyous mother of children (Ps. 113:9).
This week I got a worse doctor’s report, and I had a decision to make. I could either believe the doctor’s report and be broken-hearted and defeated, or I could stand on God’s promises and keep my eyes on Jesus. My husband and I both cancelled this diagnosis, and said we do not receive it. We are trusting in God’s word and his faithfulness. We know we already have the victory in Jesus. We know that I have already been healed by the stripes of Jesus (1 Pt. 2:24). We know that our Father is faithful, dependable, trustworthy, and true to his promises. We will not allow satan to steal our children from us. We will be the joyous parents of children and we are not barren! We will continue to grow in the Word and believe for our children, and we will not waver because our Father is faithful.
I want to encourage you not to give up no matter how many negative doctor’s reports you receive. Read the Word everyday and speak it over yourself. The bible says faith comes by hearing and hearing the Word of God (Rm. 10:17), not by reading, so don’t forget to speak it. We need to have the attitude that Abraham had and not consider our own bodies, but just consider the promise of God only (Rom. 4:19-21). Be very careful what you Google and guard your heart. Don’t read things that are going to cause fear and doubt to come into your heart and take your peace. The knowledge you think you are gaining is not worth it. It is better to just know the promises of God and that they have already been done for you. Draw faith and encouragement from the stories in the Bible of women who were barren and testimonies of other women who conceived. The books on our resource page have been a great help to Emily and I on this journey. They teach you how to walk in faith, how to use the authority that has been given to you by Jesus, and have some awesome faith building testimonies. If you stand in faith and do not waver you will see your promised children! Never give up!